Liam J Cross


Have you ever found yourself sat in absolute self-torment trying to figure out what you should do; which road you should walk down. You see, our minds are tricky beasts, and if allowed to, can turn even the simplest of decisions against us. Our mind makes easy things difficult – that’s how it works most of the time. And where would the fun be if it didn’t?

This particular decision isn’t one that I’m faced with much, but when it strikes, it’s a tough one to decide – even though it shouldn’t be. I’ll find myself sat on a Saturday afternoon after my day job (as I am right now,) and I’ll be torn between two options. Option one is to push through the exhaustion and finish my entire list today/tonight (which results in my sixth consecutive day working 13-15 hours) and option two is split the list into two and finish it off after work tomorrow, which is usually my time off for the whole week.

I often get myself quite worked up over this and I have no idea why. It’s not as if I’m slacking or even considering it, I’m simply splitting up my time off over two days. I’m still getting the exact same amount of time off and I’m still getting the exact same work done – just over two days instead of one. But of course, my mind being the son-of-a-bitch it is, it makes this stage of my day rather unpleasant.

This is what I mean by our minds being unforgiving. This decision shouldn’t take me any longer than a minute to think through, but because my brain starts to tell me that I’m slacking if I choose to split my list, it takes me way longer to think about. But when I narrow it down and really think it through, it’s literally a no-brainer.

One of the main reasons I want to be fully self-employed is because in those circumstances I’ll have the ability to work the hours I want to work on the days I want to work them. And that’s literally what I want to do. I feel exhausted by this point in the week, so if my body and mind want a little downtime, why not give them some? It’s never a good idea to work yourself all the way into the ground, and it’s smart to have some planned time off – that’s why I plan my Sunday afternoon of.

But, if I wish to interrupt that time off with a little of Saturday’s work because I want to have a nap on a Saturday evening, does that really make me a bad person? No. It means I’m working smart. And more often than not, that’s just as important as working hard.